Happiness depends on...

Me...and my reliance fully and totally on you Lord. That seemed to be the "hit me over the head" message I received today. You know sometimes it takes a message being pounded into me all day for me to finally get it. I was reading a book last night by Stormie Ormatian and that's pretty much the message I got from what I read, then I was reading my devotions today and it was a Psalm...another rely on God...then I was watching Joyce Meyer a little bit today and she always preaches John 10:10. Yes God wants me to enjoy my life, but it's up to me to enjoy what God has given me. Then I got a coll from Pastor Dean today. He'd been thinking about me and just wanted to see how I was doing. So sweet of him. Thank you Lord for hitting me over the head today. I made today a good day...and it was! God has truly blessed me and if that's all I ever get from now on, I still am blessed.

After Pastor Dean called today the hubby called me. I was telling him about PD's call and as we were talking I finally came to grips with the fact as to why I'm having such a hard time moving forward...these folks PD, Rachel & PL were a huge spiritual support system for me. There were times that Rachel would call and just say the things that I needed to hear, whether I liked it or not. Rachel could be opinionated, but she always told it to me straight and I needed that. PD has always been there when we needed him and PL too for that matter. PL...I think I miss her most...she'd always make me laugh and we just seemed to click. I got teary-eyed talking to Kev today about them. I miss them...terribly...and the fact that we didn't get to see them this past weekend really bums me out. They were my huge support system...now I feel like I don't have much of anything as far as spiritual support...not spiritual ROCKS anyway. But I know I need to move forward...it's just been a harder struggle that I initially thought. But God gave me a push today...so I'm taking up my mat and I'm beginning to walk...slowly ;-)

Changed my blog song today...bought the hubby the new Jeremy Camp CD...though this song isn't on that CD it is one of hubby's favs and I like it too...no matter how much we screw up, Jesus is always there to take us back...THANK GOD! For me that seems to be a daily occurance :-)

Hubby and I went over the last details on Disney tonight. He'll probably be making reservations for meals tomorrow. It's getting so close. Can't wait....38 more days!

Later all...

Tammy